Well, school has started, and here I am: Journaling, while I should be reading, writing, answering, recording... But I need to, for myself. I need to sort it out so that it's not following me around in my mind during my studies and at work.

( entry and poetry... :) )

( I am the fire rabbit! )

-- I'm drinking Darjeeling tea. It is delicious! C:

Today was beautiful... Recently, winter has finally come to Buffalo. It was so warm until about Wednesday or so. This big storm came over night and now it's been snowing every day and the temperatures have stayed low. While I am a winter-lover, I'm not gonna lie - I was enjoying the mild winter! Looks like I'll have to deal with the cold after all! :d But, it's not so bad... I'm a bunny! (chinese astro...) we were made for these types of things. I'll just have to grow out my winter tuft.

( lengthy entry is lengthy... )

This is gonna be a rushed entry... :P

Yesterday, I went with my friend who's been staying over a few days a week down the elmwood strip and he dropped off some resumes/apps. We sat for coffee for a bit (I got green rooibos, quite delicious!) and then I headed to my sister's while he finished his trip and then went home for the week.

Sarah's was good. I had the feeling i was interrupting something when I came over, but soon after we began cleaning... Her dishes were so backed up, than when I was finally able to get to the last bin, the bottom of it had rotting milk and such. It was tough, I almost barfed >.< But I got through it.

We had a lot of interesting conversation, and she really opened up about some things. She asks me lots of questions, and I kind of like it...

I don't know why she wears makeup... in the summer it smears off of her and she looks crazy. She's good at doing it but she just shouldn't wear it. Her skin is so nice.

We went to the library and she met some little kid who was really talkative... It was cute. I guess he comes there to hang out with and older girl/woman that works there. He looked about 11-13? Reminds me of me and brandy :) I used to go and hang out with her all day when she worked at the comic shop when i was a lot younger...

Today was good - got some dishes done and I'm finishing up making some Kombucha! Very soon, I'm leaving to go to Spanish lessons... I'm excited!

Hair that is Red
her skin that puffy delicate
you only have when you first awaken

mascara a little crusted
she didn't wash it off before bed...
She putzes around the house, half-embarrassed
of the state of it

Oh, My my big-little sister...
I do love you, so

Pointing to her belly, she says
"It's been like this for days! I look pregnant!"
symptoms of her celiac due to
years of not following her diet
Silly Sarah...
You are my big-little sister.

So I wash the dishes
and she picks up
and off to the library we went
Buffalo's chilly wind
kindly caressing us in the darkness of night

When will you be ok, Sarah?
I wanna see you get there.

I'm pretty irritated and I need somewhere to vent it out.

So I got my sister Sarah yet another job opportunity somewhere, and close to the end of the night she gets her self sent home for cursing at someone. Are you fucking serious? She can't get ANYTHING together. There can't be one second in her life without drama. It's apparently impossible. I'm done helping her out. I've gotten her 3 jobs and she has fucked every single one of them up as quick as humanly possible. I'm tired of letting her make look like a fool to my employers.

I just can't care any more.

To add more stress to the situation:

Michael Manning, who I will refer to as M, my ex has been staying at our apartment (my boyfriend and I) and working on music stuff with Michael Parke, whom I will refer to as P, my current, for a few days out of the week and staying the rest of the week at his roomies place in cheektowaga. Well the roomie situation isn't working out for M because his roomies are a sex addict and his wife who has aspergers syndrome. His wife swears up and down the M i having sex with sex addict, which is not true, but she's crazy and rude, so whatever. Apparently every time he comes home they freak out on him for something or other, and it's getting to the point where he's thinking he can't stay there any more. M says he refuses to go home, because he doesn't get a long with his family, and if he won't go there, and he doesn't feel safe at the sex addicts house, then obviously P is going to want to let M stay here, because he has no where to fucking go. FUCK.

Now, I may seem insensitive but there are reasons I don't want to live with him:

A) He doesn't clean.

B) He's loud.

C) He's aggressive.

D) I won't have ANY privacy or recharge time alone.

E) He doesn't have a job yet so he's not even saving up to get an apartment.

F) He smokes and it could affect my kombucha because smoke encourages mold growth in kombucha. It also upsets me because I don't like it.

My new year is proving to be stressful.

Today. I say thank you for everything. This is a pretty silly writers block, it's basic manners to say thank you. wtf.

sorry to spam you all with this, but this series of comments deserves a much larger response than twitter is capable of allowing me.

( merrr.... )

Hello my beautiful Friendlies and livejournalers!

ok, so enclosed is a letter about the absolutely vile and disgusting tar sands project happening in canada, which, according to the powers that be, could be piped all over north america... maybe you're thinking that it sounds like a good thing, but think again. PLEASE watch this video before you read on as it will put everything in perspective.

(i'm serious, watch it!! don't read another word until you do.)

This is something that i care a lot about, so please take this seriously. i'm not just arbitrarily posting this to all of you for some lame ass bull shit. I am certain that some of you probably already KNOW all of this and seen or read this, or something similar to it already. We have to end our total dependence on fossil fuels and move toward finding ways to make renewable energy sources more efficient and reduce our waste and usage! Destroying the planet is not going to get us what we want.

¡Robert!
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( letter under the cut... feel free to re-lj this, post it elsewhere, or forward it as an email message. )